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i NEED to go back to yoga. there's a few other things on my list. my to do list.

for fun:

cake decorating class ~ signed up!
jewelry/beading class
pottery class
i would like to learn to knit. scarf? toque?
card making


for nonfun:

immunizations course ~ signed up!
mental health worker certificate
maternity upgrade
peds upgrade

i NEED to go back to yoga. I was getting quite good at my Sun Salutations. And my downward dog was becoming really quite impressive. More importantly, I felt....sane.

Monday. Meh.

something for me

I'm in a REALLY pissy mood these days. I don't have anything nice to say to anyone. Not a thing. To no-one. I pretty much hate everything. Do you know, I have never ever ran my mouth about my ex in public. I'm not about to now....but that COULD have something to do with my mood. And I'm tired of everyone's bloody negativity. It's really not good. For some reason it attaches to me like a magnet. And it grows & festers til it overcomes me. I feel mad and angry and sad. I'm good at building walls around me. It's safer that way. Nobody gets hurt.

On the flip side, I signed up for a beginner, Wilton Level 1 cake decorating class. Why? God only knows. We don't eat cake. Although I think we should.

I could only wish to be this happy right now. I guess I should probably start taking orders. Cakes by Rocketgirl?

trying to get used to the idea...

so. quinn's new school has one of the most highly regarded band programs in all of western canada. when i grew up, dorks joined the band. apparently it's the cool thing to do now. and while i have been prepared for some time that this was coming....we bought quinn an acoustic guitar for his birthday in May...i think it's def going to take more time to get used to.

quinn was told, there is only room for 3 bass guitarists in 6th grade band. 4 children wanted to play. names were drawn, quinn + his best bester both drew bass guitar along with a girl. so i have ONE happy 11 yr old. and of course quinn + his bff have been planning the demise of the Jonas Brothers ever since band class on wednesday.



a bass guitar comes with an AMPLIFIER! wtf! so while this isn't quinn's actual setup, we go on saturday to the music store to get it all, (and of course i will post pics of his proud little face as we select his guitar, amp etc) i find myself staring at this picture...trying to absorb it all. envisioning the noise that is home practice requirement wafting from the basement. trying to love the pending noise, proud that he wants to learn music.

hey, have you met my son quinn? he's a rockstar. he bought me a boat & we're going to the grammys. omg, what am i going to wear?

patience is a virtue...

you know, i have been trying to post for days. the computer works fine, the internet...no problems there. i just have nothing to say. well, ok, i have LOTS to say, just really can't be bothered. i'd LIKE to be bothered but...been a helluva week.

pure emotional & physical exhaustion. finally thought i was recovering from my hell summer work schedule + vegas....and the news hit. really shitty news at work. really difficult times ahead. morale has hit a new all time low. i really hope we can all pull thru this.

we have been stressing, as if we have room for more stress this week, about selling our home/buying a home. i don't even know where to begin. MEH.

first full week of middle school for quinn, it's going really well. so far. my heart doesn't know what to do...swell with pride cuz he is so damn cute trying to be all grown up or hurt cuz he's just a little little boy...trying to be all grown up.

6 days off. hopefully just 4 or 5 though. we'll see.

not even a wave...

Grade 3. Grade 6. How did this happen???

I mean look at them? No nice pants, no collared
shirts. I tried. But apparently it IS cool to wear
baggy jeans and hoodies (as the approx 500 middle school kids wore) And I am unhip. Did I
mention you don't tie up your sk8 shoes either??

So middle school was a madhouse. The nervous hovering 6th grade parents. Present company included...I could hardly tear myself away to get to the elementary school...which was nice. Same parents, (we still hover) same classmates, wonderful teacher. Wonderful little contained
school. Familiar.

Quinn didn't look back. Not once.
Mason gave me a kiss, but was gone in a flash.

Thank gawd it's only a half day. I wonder if they know that I still need them to need me???

Weekend Update

Good News! See that? That's a potential new addiction. I would like to thank Mona. I had NEVER heard of this glorious girly company before our trip to Vegas. And now, in my possession...TODAY, is a gorgeous Pandora bracelet. I had a charm bracelet once as a little girl.... See the blue polka dot bead at about, oh...5 o'clock in the photo? I got that one! I also got two gorgeous clips and an OWL charm! I love owls. So wise...whoooooo. Bad News! I am not allowed to wear it until my birthday...c'monnnnnnn December!

I'm on days off. Busy day...coffee...shopping...Besides my new trinket, Quinn got a cell phone. Meh. It's for safety. Can't he just be my baby for a little while longer?

The boys got haircuts! (What? didn't you hear? on the news? hell froze over today!) Mason got a trim. Quinn got a bonafide short hair do! Naturally I love it. Sigh.

The rest of the day was, relaxing, nail painting (Sephora OPI High Maintenance ~xoxo Buckshee) and dinner out @ the OSF. Wine on the couch finishes up my day. 2 thumbs up.

Happy Labour Day!

what the eff?

i screwed up my blog page! i tried to spruce it up. then i tried to revert back to what it was. oh lordy, pick a bale of cotton, i am JUST not that smart. i THINK it is back to normal.