anger, fury, rage

these are just a few emotions that i am feeling TENFOLD tonight. i have completely & utterly ran out of gumption. as immature as this sounds, i just feel....DONE with everyone. i cannot possibly please everybody, much to everyone's disappointment, and i certainly don't plan to die trying.

i always always ALWAYS go with my gut feeling. it has never let me down in the past. i can't believe that i ignored it for so long.
ROCKETGIRL.

acute confusion

you people make me laugh with your "go for it's"

perhaps you could give me your reasons why!
and then i will present you with my arguments! ;)

love, ROCKETGIRL

it's poor me time

and no it's not that time of the month. i just feel quite lonely & defeated & inadequate & trapped.

ROCKETGIRL

silenced

forever silenced.

ROCKETGIRL

HHHHMMMPHHHH

So guess who is NOT home for good this Thursday.

i guess i lose.

i am very unhappy today.
i am very confused today.

adult relationships are difficult.
i should never have opened myself up.
& yes, i know how pathetic & dramatic this looks.

bitter.

good riddance cheam 2

i have had 2 hours sleep after a night shift. i am going in for another.

i am so exhausted and worn out. fighting with your ex's gf for days takes alot out of you. i am on the verge of barfing i am so exhausted.

and tonight, i am going to nurse 11 patients in an unsafe environment. i cannot express my disgust in words about how i feel about my shift and what has been going on at work.

thankfully, tomorrow is another day.

this is the last time

i have been trying to update this all fucking morning and now i'm the pissiest i have ever been.
all this damn technology and nothing ever works.

i baked some cakes, i decorated some cakes, one is ugly, one is not. it's for veronica, my LPN student who is finished her preceptorship tonight.

no wit, no pictures, i'm done.

not impressed.

guess who ISN'T coming home for good in 13 sleeps.