another trip around the sun...

it's new years eve! what did you do this year? anything memorable? any regrets?
what's on YOUR agenda for this year?

we're having a low key nye this year. good friends, good food, shenanigans. obviously.
i can't even believe the year is over. i already have a bit of a bad attitude about 2010....
really because of the olympics...that's all, oh and it's totally possible that i could end up picketing. that should be interesting. after that, 2010 should be fine. husband is home for good, so that makes the year better right from the start.

so, memorable for me? too many things to list...vegas girls trip, quinn starting middle school, starting a business...
regrets? far too many to list...i hope not to be able to say that next year. live & learn yes?
and my agenda? sorta ties in to the short regret list...standard goals, be healthy, be happy...

have a wonderful new year. prosperity, happiness & love to you from Rocketgirl. xoxo

in thru the nose...

oh my! i have been having wee little panic attacks again! i don't know why!

yikes!

how was everyone's christmas? boxing day?
i went on a bit of a spring cleaning bender today...like nesting kind of cleaning...and no, i am not with child...just got into the swing of things...next thing you know...dustbunnies, be gone!

i'm full from a lovely sushi dinner...and wish i could sit the next week on the couch.
but alas, i return to work tomorrow. for 4 dayshifts. i know. we're not talking about it anymore.

it's weird to think the hubby is home for good and that tomorrow i don't have to rush and tell him all that i need to tell him before he goes away again. capiche?
he's already busy drywalling and finishing off the basement...doing boy things, rearranging, hammering, grumbling...i'll take it any day.

so hope your boxing day was full of relaxation and good times...so hard to believe that we are getting closer to the end of the year. big changes coming people. don't get all excited. it's resolution time.

d.xo

Merry Christmas!

happy holidays!

feliz navidad!

linksmu kaledu!

nollaig shona dhuit!

shub naya baras!

mele kalikimaka!

god jul!

joyeux noel!

sung tan chuk ha!


to you and yours!

Christmas Eve

i can't believe how different this year is from last year!
i'm referring to the amount of snow...and today looks like spring!

anyhoooo, it's christmas eve. my children are leaving in an hour, the hubby & doggy are already gone...THANK GOD work called! going in for 4 hours this afternoon to help out....that's 4 less hours i have to sit around the house by myself and cry. all alone on christmas eve. meh. at least hubby & doggy will be back before i get home from work tomorrow so we can have a nice quiet christmas evening together.

i'm still woozy & dizzy. tlc's 2nd order is packaged & ready to go. 3rd order is thankully...CUPCAKES! nice & easy... i have to start my online course...oh & i signed up for bootcamp. and yogaaaaaa, i'm coming.....

i wish you & yours a wonderful wonderful christmas eve!

d.xo

i can has a cheeseburger

i fricken WISH! it's 0341h. u think they deliver?

damn you Eve!

it's all her fault, she fell to Adam's charms in the garden, and now look....

ok, that could be a BIT over the top. having said that, wtf....why must we women suffer so?
night sweats? more like night drenches....i am FAR too young for this...i swear after 2 or 3 nights like that my electrolytes are WAAAAAY out of whack....does that explain the nausea & dizziness?

meh. i had to run to michaels craft store....oy! i am so glad i am finished all my Xmas stuff for the year....ppl are CRANKY! and mean! and bitchy! it's all elbows out, every man, woman & child for themselves....

TLC is about to deliver their very first cake, order #2...so exciting...so nerve wracking...i feel like buddy on cake boss...my tummy is in knots over the transfer....i will be PISSSSSSED if the transfer does not go well....pleeeeeeeease please don't let me screw up the transfer! planning out the flattest, un-bumpiest route...

is it nap time yet??

d.xo

where is the world is carmen sandiego???

i didn't realize that it had been a few days since i posted!
hey, i've been busy!

what can i tell you today....
rocketgirl isn't feeling well (insert sympathetic noises here)

christmas is almost upon us, although, we had ours with the boys on friday and it was lovely.
it's so funny and wonderful to see the looks on their faces while they open gifts!
one of the gifts we got them was DJ Hero. OMG! So hilarious! i think i might sneak downstairs to play it today while they aren't here....whiggida whiggida whiggida whack!

other than that, we are cruising right along...nothing crazy.

TLC makes me laugh! i don't know what i expected....but we have orders! LOVE IT! and i love all the support we are getting from our families, friends and others! it's so fantastic!

i guess that's it....i know, not very exciting....

do something amazing today!

d.xo

SUPER EXCITED!

and a wee bit frightened!

TLC is in da hooooooouse!

My wonderful friend & I have launched a little sweets company! Months of blood, sweat & tears....ok, revisions & revisions over logos, business cards etc. Our blog is still a work in progress, but things are really coming along! Soon we will add all of our products & pricing!

We are on Facebook, Blogspot and we Tweet too! Hee hee!

ch-ch-ch-ch-check it out! wh-wh-wh-what's it all about!

http://www.tastylittleconfections.blogspot.com/

www.twitter.com/tlconfections

and on FB, Tasty Little Confections! Become a Fan!

yayayay!

d.xo

Happy Christmas Eve at our house!

Oy! I hate getting up to an alarm when I don't have to go to work. Can't the boys just get themselves up & off to school??? I guess those days are coming & I should enjoy these ones while I can.

One sleep til Christmas at our house.....

TLC has some wonderful new blog's and pages and things! It's just so exciting until someone says they want to order something....then I feel all....huh? deer in the headlights kinda huh...

Hubby comes home today...and has to go straight to Emerg for IV Abx. OY.

I love the quiet house...coffee...furry doggy all cuddled up...news...I could sit here all day....

d.
xo

HHHHMMMPHHHH

So guess who is NOT home for good this Thursday.

she has arrived!

along with old man winter! and i love it!

so the last trifectess is officially a resident of abby.
the gang's all here!

today i have to sort out all the little trinkets & gifts that i have been buying and putting away for the boys since october...see what I have and what's left to get. i have to get it done this week as we have our Christmas with them on the 23rd and i work from saturday to the 22nd soooooooo.

and i'm hoping to work tonight....

AND i'm hoping three sleeps is all i have to endure until my best friend comes home for good. i CANNOT wait, i so need him to come home for good.

TLC is getting OUT OF CONTROL! kidding.

i guess that's it. drive safe. happy snowy day!

d.xo

ohhh the weather outside is frightful....

i'm so excited to see some snow finally!

been a few days....do i have anything of significance to report?

hmmmmm, let's see

* a dear member of the trifecta is almost officially an abbotsford resident...
* i love that the trifecta is minutes apart!
* mr. rocketgirl has, APPARENTLY, one week left in mountainland
* today we are getting our tree @ the tree farm and decorating gingerbread kids
* TLC has their first order!!!!!! WOOOOOOT

and it's 2 weeks today until Christmas!
LET IT SNOW!!!!!

d.xo

have you done your holiday baking yet??

YAWN

sooooo,

• completed shopping - negative
• tired? affirmative
• going to work - affirmative
• should i have told staffing yes? negative, ok affirmative

to all of you who get to go to bed soon, nighty night
to all of you night shifters, wake me if you catch me sleeping at the nurses station!
d.xo

live from abbotsford....

it's saturday night....and i am here @ work.
me sleepy, me tired, me sneezing! oh no! better nip THAT in the bud...

the THPCU christmas party was last night! and OMG! SO FUN!
SUCH a good crew! i had so much fun decorating and setting up!
the party went off without a hitch, just a perfect christmas gathering!
many thanks to you buckshee for opening your lovely home to us all
(i gave my trifecta parts their gifts....FINALLY! oh man i had been so anxious about that! i could hardly keep my mouth shut! one cried, one looked stunned, i just hope they love them...a little special something to show them how much i love them, and i know they would never buy it for themselves....)

tomorrow, i will sleep for a few hours....and i am determined to finish my
christmas shopping. i've made a list, i've checked it twice, should take me no less than 2 hours.
hunny pie handsome hubby got his gift from me the other night....he was itching for something that was on sale....besides, i got my gift early!

baby it's cold outside, bundle up and enjoy your sunday!

d.xo

another year has come & gone

0205h Tuesday, December 1, 2009

How, exactly has this happened. As I sit here and listen to the sounds of work (creaking pipes, rattling ceiling joints, snoring patients, pyxis drawers opening and closing, downward occlusion beeps) I wonder, just where the heck this past year went.

As usual, this past year has been a mass roller-coaster ride for me. You know, I always assumed that as you got older, things would make more sense, you'd feel more settled and experience more peace. Generally speaking. I find however, that things make LESS sense, I feel LESS settled and have experienced the least amount of peace than in recent years. Now why is that?

I thought my heart was full and I had no room for anything else. My heart grows three sizes too large every day that I see and experience something new with the boys. I just can't even believe how funny & wonderful their personalities are. I can hardly wait til their Christmas concerts this month. I have Kleenex ready. I just know I will bawl. I cannot help it.

Quinn overheard me say the other day that my body seemed to be changing....I meant the strange going-on's lately, the exhaustion, the clumsiness, the hormone swings, and he says to me, mom, it's ok my body is changing too! I love you Quinn. And I love you Mason. You tear at my heart strings every single day.

My family....end of story. Aren't things a mess. My heart aches everyday. So I try not to think about it. Maybe one day....hopefully not too late.

The ex. Always tricky, we don't always have success, but I think we are doing the best we can. Thank god he is a good father. I still remember the good times.

My in laws....thank you. Just thank you so much.

My job, I love. I really & truly do. Now, I didn't get into school this fall and as a result, have experienced doing things for ME! What a novelty. I'm starting back to yoga this month. Truly, that was a turning point for me this past February. And I cannot believe I have abandoned it. I feel shame for the state that my downward dog will surely be....but not for long.

It's been a really tricky year this year for friendships. I feel like I have lost some. I know that I have gained some. I have daily struggles regarding friendships. This is not something I expected to be dealing with at the age of "29-again" I am still learning not to build walls. I can count on one hand though, the friends that have helped me get through this year. They have built me up and allowed me to feel like a little bit of me. No, alot of me. I so love you.

There's a possible new venture on the horizon...it excites me. I wonder if it can work...I so want it to.

I just want to be happy. Settled and peaceful. It sounds so easy. Yet, so intangible. It's definitely work. Sometimes hard, but it usually pays off. I just have to keep reminding myself of that.

I need to work on patience and acceptance and forgiveness.

One thing that remains constant, is my far too wonderful husband. Sometimes, I sit and think about who we used to be apart, then who we were together, and how we have changed together and grown together over the years. The most I have learned about myself has been since he came into my life. The most I have learned about love, I learned from him. His neverending amount of patience for me, and his neverending amount of understanding for me I find astounding. I think I sometimes push it and push it to see how far I can go....He keeps me grounded, he keeps me in line, but most importantly he lets me be exactly who I am, no matter how good or bad that is and yet, he loves me unconditionally, without judging, or scolding or cutting me down. I hope to get used to that at some point. I hope to stop worrying whether or not I deserve someone so wonderful. I am lucky to have him, the boys are lucky to have him and I feel so thankful that we are a family. I need to remind myself how good we have it. I shouldn't have to, but sometimes I need to.

It's 0245h. It's not really taken me this long...pt bells are going, there's chit chatting, the site leader is bustling about...

It's December, my very favourite time of year. MY new year. I hope to be a better me this year, for my family & my friends. And most of all for me. I can do this.

d.xo